Cold, desolate, mournful, sorrowful, gloomy

I thought if I could make you laugh, you would like me, but I lost, lost to the one who could make you cry.

I put in so much effort to chat with you, I even loathe myself. I'm a proud person, I shed all my armor to pursue you, yet I still don't receive your sympathy,

If I had never met you, if I had never fallen in love with you, if I hadn't initially believed, perhaps I wouldn't be the way I am now,

You are just a dream I've been having for a long time, I woke up too early, a little clumsy, a little regretful, but I can't keep chasing you like a child begging for candy, I'm too tired, so I have to let you go,

I've seen the sea swallow seagulls, without any bloodshed, and I felt sorrow, like for your love, I've offered everything, only to have it sink into the silent depths.