Ten Years Later, I Almost Forgot How Purely I Ever Loved!
Seven years old and seventeen years old, there's a decade in between!
Seventeen years old and twenty-seven years old, there's a lifetime!
I remember that it was the 2009 lunar year on December 18th, my student life hadn't ended, and you were my whole world!
7:00, the phone was ringing frantically with Chen Xu's 'I'm just a legend', the lyrics are a bit too poignant, but his voice is a bit too relaxed! Woke up early, perhaps it was my subconscious expecting something, a strange excitement was active in every cell!
7:39, I got out of bed, the world outside was dark and mysterious, with no signs of becoming transparent or bright.
8:20, I brushed my teeth at a turtle's pace and glanced at the time, it was still early! 40 minutes, how do I pass the time? I hugged my younger sister, from the first floor to the third floor, from the third floor to the first floor, I didn't listen to her funny dialect from a foreign land as I usually do, and I didn't even kiss her plump little face, I just knew that I hugged her up and down, she didn't cry, and I didn't feel time passing slowly........
Facing a bowl of rice, I appeared at the computer desk with a marathon speed, opened the computer, the small number in the bottom right corner shocked me: 9:27, he had already waited for 27 minutes. I rushed to log in to QQ, his avatar was still black and white, fortunately, he hadn't waited for me, he was still sleeping in, I couldn't help but smile. The same notification appeared again, but this time I didn't instinctively click 'X', because I saw the word 'Small Table' in bold and his penguin avatar. Watching midnight again, is he still blowing 'Good' with two megaphones? I opened his QQ space, and there were the same familiar words, the same expression, I raised my corner of my mouth!
10:00, he hadn't gone online yet, I thought he was probably eating. Feeling bored, I checked if 'Heart Attack' and 'Happiness Next Stop' had any new updates. 'Happiness Next Stop' was 17 episodes, 'Heart Attack' had reached 14 episodes. I wanted to watch them, but I was afraid it would affect my chat with him, and I closed the window with pain.
10:30, he still hadn't appeared, I started to worry that he might be held up by something. A faint sadness permeated. I opened 'Heart Attack' 14 episodes and watched with my sisters...
Unknowingly, it had reached the END, 11:20, the penguin was still without color........
13:30, I should be online now, but the result was the same, no one patronized my frequently viewed avatar. I ran to the room to find my phone, but there was no desired SMS on the screen. I sat wearily on the bed, with no messages, so late he hadn't told me the reason, did he not know my feelings?
15:10, he still hadn't sent a message, and he hadn't done so yesterday at this time. Now, I replayed the last text message, the final promise, the word 'okay' written by him in 'good' words now felt no longer rounded, it sharply pierced my inner depths........
After dinner, with a little bit of hope, I looked at two tools that could contact him, and was disappointed to go outside to appreciate the home appliance subsidy campaign that I had no interest in. Standing in the crowded crowd for a long time, I was silent, and I immediately deleted his phone number.
22:10, I didn't give up, I put aside the last bit of pride and checked his avatar, and I was completely desperate. I blocked him on QQ and couldn't help but cry hot tears........
Many times, I couldn't help but send a message to ask the truth. I worried that my life was like this, full of misunderstandings and coincidences, but I didn't want to be the one to initiate...
23:20, Quiet time, quiet room, I lay quietly in bed, and there was a bustling cry in my heart, and there was an unprecedented temperature on my face and ears, throbbing pain, past events played out one by one........
Memories are disordered, fragmented!
Our story hasn't come to fruition, it has already bloomed in different directions! I broke his number, and also broke his QQ, thinking that I had broken the longing and concern........
Many years later I realized, that the best ending for us was mutual disinterest and no news of each other!
