Is the life you want now the direction you're working towards? Isn't it?
Are you working hard for the life you want now? Isn't it?
2020 was arguably the most difficult year for me, with many things happening and many things to remember for a lifetime. Life is always spent unexpectedly, regardless of whether we face it or avoid it. The fact that something has happened is just that, there is no choice. The only thing we can do is make our own choices.
On March 2, 2020, in the evening, after dinner, sitting in front of the computer, I suddenly felt lost. During this time, I was very passionate about updating Douyin headlines every day, and I tried to update one article and one short video every day, trying to fill my time with fulfillment. Because I knew that if I stopped, it would lead to endless rambling or anxiety, including this watery and sloppy article. How to describe today's article doesn't matter.
Are you working hard for the life you want now? Isn't it?
I often ask myself this question during this period: are you working hard? We are all working hard every day, but if you think about it carefully, are you working in the right direction? You might say: That's for sure, you have to work hard to catch the northwest wind! But if you work in the wrong direction, the more you work, the further you'll deviate, which might be counterproductive. Sometimes I think so, this stems from my personality and mindset changes.
When I was a child, I often fantasized about being an adult and doing things in a certain way, or doing them in another way. Basically, as a child, I thought I was very capable, believing that the adult world was easy to get along with, without having to write homework every day or be scolded by parents, or even beaten. You have to beat others to get it. I thought fantasizing was also an effort, trying to think about it and remember my fantasies. When I grow up, I want to realize them.
As I grew older, born in 1990, I’m definitely not someone who’s considered successful. I’ve done many jobs that aren’t considered good, such as Ankuandi, iron factory, sales, insurance, courier, construction site... I suddenly felt lost and realized that I was working more for money. Maybe that's not wrong, but I’ve become impatient and wanted to find all kinds of ways to make money. I have to admit that I have no talent in this area, and even simple investment can fail. For a while, I was full of doubts about my entire life.
I even doubted whether my nature was like this. I saw many similar experiences, and many people failed, and only a few people were lucky enough to succeed. Sometimes I instinctively categorize myself into the group of failure. At this age, it’s difficult to achieve anything significant, and I say that achieving something is getting married and having children. Many people would say, 'Are you content? You have a wife and children, what else do you need?'
Are you working hard for the life you want now? Isn't it?
Of course, I’m content, but we can’t always stay at one stage, including this moment. I’m still typing on the keyboard. I don’t want to stop. Sometimes, if we keep compromising and giving up our inner thoughts for reality, we will lower our heads for the sake of a family's livelihood. Doing jobs that might not be acceptable to us, we understand this is reality. I’ve grown up and realized that my childhood fantasies were so naive and slapped me in the face.
Now I ask myself: are the things you’re doing now what you want to do? Are you working hard for the life you want?
Maybe, although I don't know what my future will become, I know that what I do now may affect the future. Sometimes we plan our lives, but often we need to consider many conditions and factors. Life is a series of unexpected and coincidental events. The things we can do are to keep moving forward and arm ourselves.I will keep going, there is no target here, just do it. I enjoy writing articles and recording videos. If this article can cause some reflections for my friends who read it, that’s enough.
Wishing you good health!!!
