What Feelings Do You Have After Watching Lost River?

I don't know how many years ago, this song was spread by various morbid minds, and I accidentally heard it without finishing it, feeling uncomfortable in my ears, and at the time I thought my personal acceptance capacity was limited, telling myself that if I felt uncomfortable, I shouldn't force myself to listen to it just because it was called 'elitist and unpopular'. Today I accidentally heard it again, still uncomfortable, but this time because I was crying non-stop, my throat tightened, and my temples felt like they were about to explode.

There have been many things happen in the intervening years, and I've been under a lot of pressure and depressed for a long time recently. Even if kind people are willing to listen, it's really difficult for people to understand each other. Your senses and thoughts make up your world, and we must acknowledge that some parts can only be understood by ourselves, even if we don't understand them ourselves. The unaddressed negative emotions accumulate. Although crying is painful, I feel much better. It feels like the scales in my body are slowly returning to balance.

I will still listen to my favorite melodies, but this song has given me so many indescribable feelings, haha I don't know why, maybe I've lost my mind haha