‘A Distant Marriage’: The Unbreachable Barrier in Her Heart
The man who once entrusted you with his life, loving you for a lifetime, is he still steadfastly cherishing and adoring you? I am a widowed woman who lives far away and is currently living a relatively happy life, but sometimes I experience grievances and have no one to confide in when I quarrel with my husband, only enduring and suppressing my feelings. Sometimes I cry hysterically in my bed, punishing my husband to vent my anger and resentment.
These don't really matter in the end. As long as there's a way to release the pressure. Every time I set foot on the road home, my heart is filled with sadness and helplessness. A visit home can make Grandma happy for a month, and when I leave, Grandma will be saddened, unable to find peace. Before, I would always say, 'Now that transportation is so convenient, you can come home anytime.' This is also a way to comfort myself, fearing that I will be unhappy, sad, fearing that I won't be able to bear it, and fearing the tears I can't hold back. But you have never considered your parents, wouldn't they be hurt? Watching you leave willingly, unwillingly, it must be agonizing. Since you've gone far away, there's a barrier between you and your parents, preventing you from entering and leaving easily.
